So here we are.....

I have a rare quite moment in our home. Both boys are sleeping and yes the house is actually clean. I honestly cherish this time, it is time to catch up with my Dad. I still look at and read the blog every night. It makes me feel close to him. The six month mark has come and gone, to most it was just another day. Most people did not acknowledge or even remember that on September 10th it was 6 months since our Father died. For me (Cindy) it was a day of great sorrow. I remember thinking when he died how would we live without him. Well we are, life does go on even if sometime I want it to stop. I still pick up my phone to call him, I still wonder what he is doing and sometimes I still honestly think that this is all just a joke and he will come walking in the front door. I truly miss him everyday. Life is just quite without him. He truly was larger than life. I have been Blessed with amazing dreams and images of my Dad in the last six months. I also take great comfort in the fact that Jake our youngest looks just like my Dad. He loves to be around people and he wants what he wants when he wants it. His smile is infectious, and helps all of us see the good things in life. So here we are, as Jul said most of us are coming out of the fog. We continue to laugh, cry and stick together-because that is what our parents taught us. It is great to see him live on in each of us. Yesterday I came home to Rexer doing his breaks on his truck for the first time without Dad, as I sat in the car watching him I noticed that he was wearing Dad's shirt. He noticed me watching him, a smile and tears is what we both were wearing at the same moment. Later Ry was helping him and I walked out to check on them, Ry came over to show me a tool. I looked down and saw oil and grease all over my 2year-old hands. They looked just like his Grandpa's hands. I thank God daily for the fact that my boys look like there Grandpa. What a blessing.

Life is good, but quite without you Daddy. I miss you. Thank you for always making me feel special and like your little princess even after your death. 27 years with you, makes 6 months without you seem like a life time. I love you.

Cin